The picture on my desktop. And i absolutely adores it.Not because i like to stare at my own preety face, but it is because of the look in his eyes.the look that says it all,or simply shows that u are in love.well, aint I A-M-A-Z-I-N-G? heh
writtern @3:26 PM
school this sem wont be as exciting as the last few sems.
there'll be lack of sleep, camps in school, late night coding wif the cool geeks at a not-so-cool coding place and worst, very much less time with the fiance.
hurhur.
Yes, i just need to whine it out.
writtern @1:40 PM
Abang Ahmad's grandfather passed away last saturday. He fell in the bathroom and was unconscious. Rushed to the hospital and was in a very much critical condition, and passed away that fateful afternoon.Innalillah. May Allah bless his soul. Though i never saw him before, heard from Abang ahmad how a very kind and lively person he was.I know how its like to have lost a loved one. I even know how it feels to see someone dying infront of u. I know that old man will always be remembered in his loved ones' memories. *smiles*. How i wish, the people dont have to cut him up. Kesian.
I never really know how it feels like to have a grandfather. Both my grandfather died even before i was born. Yes, it was kinda sad. I only knew them from stories my ayah and ibu had told me. And then there are the pictures too. Family photos and passport-size ones. haha, i could still laugh at the thick-rimmed black glasses both of them wore. One thing for sure, they were good respectable men, responsible and loving, and strong, judging from the number of childrens they have. hah.
Last few days were not exactly merry.
And they were rough n rocky.
But im glad i could still smile, and be positive bout many things.
And sometimes, that could come back around and bite u in the ass.tsk tsk.
Whatever it is, i am grateful for wat i have and i accepted the fact that there are things which are never meant for me(well at least after i tried my best alot of times).
And no matter how exhausted or draining i am at the moment,
i can still smile.
PS: to my computing peeps, u guys are amazing and a wonderful bunch. i lurve ya all, and u all know why. :)
writtern @4:38 PM
So yeah, i lost it to Borat. And omg, it was a show. Hilarious and surprisingly disgusting(well for a r21 virgin like me at least). I knew guys would love it. haha. For me, it is Funny(yups with the capital F) but some parts made me go "ewww". An eye-opener, yes it was. heh. And blood diamond is awesome. Go watch it. An unexpectedly great show where they exposed the dirrrty side of diamond industry. Love was trying to make me feel guilty bout diamonds and all seh. tsk tsk tsk. (What, now must be gold for mas kahwin ke? erks.) Btw the show captured a good shocking side of the chaos in the country, u knw, the rebels against the government. And they made such a great hoo-ha bout "Jelly Icecream". hmmmmmm
This week was spent alot with the man. Sushi, pizza, JB, dinners,movies. heh. Nice.
Cant wait to shop badly with him. Yes, and without realising it, he has become the best shopping buddy i ever had. And he, my friends, participates in all of my shopping activities. Thank god he did not just membontot je or feel dragged. Its cool of coz; for everytime he chose for me when i couldnt make up my decisions (knowing how fickle i am), or he spotted something i didnt in the shops. *smilez*
And a dinner at marina square seoul garden(thank god, a place with good food) is half-set this sat nite, courtesy of Ain and hakim, if im not mistaken. Would be a gathering of a different angle but with the familiar ones. I hope things go well on that day, knowing how Ain really wants to make this happen and how some believe a breath of fresh air will be interesting. Even if things dont go as planned(insya allah not), i will always be happy to have spent time together, especially with the two of u babes. But of course, nothing beats the meet-ups we always have yar? lolz.
Btw, finally Love gave in , in letting me help him plan for our anniversary. hehe.
February WILL be an interesting month.
writtern @12:24 AM
Spent 7 hours at his place. Where 3/4 of it was spent in his room. ehem.
Well, the man is sick. With flu, and a lil cough and a very2 high fever.
And omg, he is so cengeng, but in a different yet absolutely adorable way.
He was super quiet to begin with. I miss the old him, the funny man and the big teaser. *grinz* And he was manja too. Everytime I ran my fingers through his hair and gave him a quick massage at the back of his head, he would stay put even if he has to stop doing his work. hehe. One funny thing i noticed just now too was that he took 5-7min naps every half an hour.And he can sleep anywhere too. haha. Well the boring part though was the fact that he lost his appetite, big time. kesian. Kesian for both him and me. Coz i dont haf eating-buddy seh. boohoo.
So the day actually started with me, coming over his house ard 12ish. Brought warm soya bean milk, tauhue and banditto for his breakfast. And Love laughed when he saw banditto. (Ok, fine. Me tak ikut pantang-laranglah when im sick. I can even drink pepsi when im having a fever. oopss.) Btw he took a very loooooooooooong time, to get his ass out of the house, to go to the doctor. I was so worried of his condition, and if i could drive, i would have seriously dragged him down to the doctor.
2-days MC from the doctor. hmm, boleh tahan.
Happy happy news for both of us as that means more time for each other before he goes off again.
and im simply happy.
After the visit to the doctor, went back to his house and i spent 5 hours helping him with his work, since i promised him to do it together. Emails and sorting. It was not as exciting as a date on a Saturday, but surprisingly, I enjoyed it. Sitting cross-legged on the floor, with the papers around me, typing and clicking away - were all new, but listening to his slow and calm breathings, which could be wheezy at some times, gave me the sense of comfort and simply, the familiarity which i always feel when Im with him. For every moment of those, it was so beautiful and perfect that it was indescribable. sigh.
Later that night, after yet another hour of waiting for him to stop napping every where he placed his butt at, we finally got ourselves out of the house and makan!! We ate at Adam Road. Actually im the only one eating. It wasnt fun eating alone. I miss the old him badly. Hope my dear will recover soon. Insya Allah. I need him badly to accompany me shopping and eat and eat and eat.
2moro will be another day of staying at home. But this time round he is coming over to do his work, use the printers, stuffs like that. Was really excited coz it'll be the first time I bring him over other than dinners and kenduri and hari raya visits. I was all smiley up till my mom said,"Boleh datang, tapi siti kena bangun subuh kemas." blehz.
Aniways sleeping early 2nite,
since the man is high on cough syrup already.
writtern @9:58 PM
2006, an unexpected year.The year i found him, the one. It was unexpected of course. It was unplanned.From a simple email, to the msn(he downloaded msn right there n then just to chat with me), to the impromptu date, all lead to one spectacular outcome. US.And it has been one interestingly exciting and loving relationship, where every day has never been a dull day.And i have learnt a lot, not only about myself, but him, and us together.Bout the real relationship we are in, our expectations for now and our future, bout our family differences and similarities, and most important of all, of how well we adapted ourselves as being each others fiance/fiancee, which was different from what we experienced before we knew one another.I am grateful of what i have now. And i am excited and ready for what is installed for me in every aspect of my future.Honestly, to be in love and to be loved is simply beautiful.
writtern @3:53 PM
I just came back from a lovely 12hour JB trip with my family. From 11am-11+pm. Spent the day at JUSCO, i din shop, coz i prefer to survey first. Look at the things, compare prices and all, not just serbu and buy. I used to be like that then, but now, i am a lil bit smarter in shopping. :P
JUSCO is huge... I think its like twice of vivocity. And they have cool shops too. Alah, mcm utk kita org2 muda. haha. And the best part when we were there, was the late lunch at kenny rogers. FANTASTIC. and its yummy. kenyang giler. Bought papa roti for my ayah to try. Kept telling him for a year already that he must go and at least try. The firtst bite he tooked and his eyes terbeliak. haha.
After helping my bros to shop for clothes,bags & shoes, ibu for bag and comfy heels, and ayah, his comfortable scholl sandals, we made our way to carrefour to buy groceries. Ooh i wasnt sad that i din get anything at all, coz i knew, my darling dearest will bring me there for shopping n sushi soon. *grinz*
The funny moment in carrefour was when we just walked past the glass door at the entrance when my ayah said, " Ok, korang sume cari position masing2". I was trying my best-est not to laugh seh. It sounded so funny. Mcm nak gi perang pulak. Then hadi, dia punya menyakat org, ran 10 feet ahead, stopped and diri super straight and shouted to us, "Ok, hadi nye position sini". hahaha. I was so convinced that if my dad had gone to army when he is younger, he will be more teruk then this. Knowing my dad(surely bai, ain, and Love know the person he is), i knew that he doesnt like us to take our own sweet time, and wanted things to be done asap. Alah, chill sikit ah ayah. :P Must learn it from my Love lah like this. Coz i think, i am a lot like my dad, in many ways. heh.
After carrefour, we went gelang patah to pray and rest, and ate kfc. I was super full, from kenny rogers. Then my dear ibu went to order 4 sets and 3 xtra burgers. We all can only finished half of those. That was when we forced ourselves to finish the rest, coz we know ayah am such a law-abiding person, that even he wont smuggle a piece of chicken from kfc/a ramlee burger into singapore. haiz. I went home looking like a 2months pregnant, sexy lady. lolz.
Today was well spent with the family. And im happy, we got the time to sit, joke around and bonded, coz we have been busy then, with preparations for Along's wedding. Now things are way better, alhamdulillah.
I am missing Love so very much. He had been away for 3days. Love went balik kampung to Melaka. It was sweet of him, to spend the few hours before 1/1/2007 on the msn with me. haha. Mcm countdown together gitu ah. We talked alot of stuffs, and we touched on the topic of honeymoon. I asked for his opinions on going umrah as honeymoon. I was just wondering, nothing confirmed yet though. I mean i do wanna go to all those other places that i have wanted to go so badly, but from the way i see it, mekah/medinah can be as beautiful and fantastic as europe/australia. Coz what matters to me is who i am going with. And since im going with Love, my husband to be , insya allah, every place will be of the same significance and as memorable as the other places. haha. But then again, i think there'll be a lack in the sex department. hmm. better think again, eh?. haha. *wide-grinz*
Okie.. sleeping now.
feet aching big time.
Cant wait for 2moro!
writtern @11:47 PM
