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Sunday, March 27, 2005

An interesting sunday morning conversation wif Helmi..

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
so watcha doing today?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
study.. watelse

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
then in afternoon follow my dad go c ourts n take a look

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
take a look at what? What to get for me b'day?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
electronic stuff

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
haha.. gi jaln ar

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
what electronic stuff?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
dear, they don't sell dildos at courts

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
wat the heck is that

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
see tv, mp3, cameras, video cameras,computers

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
yada3 lar..

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
you know what a vibrator is?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
a dildo's a vibrator

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
see all those electronic stuff for what?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
for fun

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
we alwys d0 that once a m0nth

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
its father-daughter thingy

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
lol

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
my god, you're like a boy trapped in a short boxumy gal

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
hoi..drop dead ar

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
man, why do i always get that alot?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i mean the world would be sooo much of a colder and cruel place without me.

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
r u sure?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
wat's boxumy btw?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
very sure dear

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
never heard the term boxum?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
it's something like mampat

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
ok2..

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
tanx for increasing my vocab

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
gawd damn gal..in just this short while we conversed, there are already two words you don't know? tsk tsk tsk, i thought you read tons of sex novels? they have pretty big words too, like libido and stuff like that

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
wth?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
i m n0t a h0rnie bitch like u

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
no no no, i don't read sex novels, i've all the skills already

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
and no i'm not horny

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:

if i was i'd be in the toilet right now

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
har?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
go toilet if horny?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
eww.. weird

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
u sick0....

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
oh please

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
all guys do that, its just a matter of where

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
i d0nn0 y guys like t0 talk h0rny t0 me

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
sheesh...

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
n0t asif i entertain them

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
puke!!!

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i am not talking horny

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
if i was talking horny it would be net sex already you you you genius you

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
duh.. i am genius

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
oh please, if i called you a retard it would still be an improvement

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
i d0nt stoop that low ,bitch

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
yes you do

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
you do that all the time

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
you're forced too since you're not exactly tall

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
huh? i m forced?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
wat u talking bout?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
hehe

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
some psych0logy shit??

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
nothing sweetie!

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
lol..

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
ever heard of karma?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
U'll get 0ne f0r d0ing tat t0 me

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
lol..

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
juz wait n c

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
okay okay fine, even though you're short, everything else you have makes up for it, does that sound betteR?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
lol..

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
n0w u sounded like u being F0RCED

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
hmm.. karma is working fast here

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
forced?! nawwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz..says:
haha..WATEVER..

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
anyway shof, wanna ask ya something

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
do you have any friends as open as me?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
open in wat sense?

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:

tell me that they masturbate ar?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i didn't tell you i do that

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i merely implied

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i do have some self respect okay

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
as in like the way we converse and all that.

SwEeTie DaMn!! Kidz r GettinG abs0luteLy cleverer these daYz.. says:
nopez..

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
hmm...shahid said the same thing too..he said as open as his army buddies are, i'm like totally different..i hope it's different in a good way...

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
haha.. its g00d

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
g00d 2 b diffferent

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
lol

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
yeah well gays are viewed different and they aren't exactly being given the red carpet ya know?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
lol

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
dont worrie.. u not that gay-different kind of pers0n

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
though i believe its not tat obvious tho'.. haha

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
-___-

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
thanks, that definetly helped

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
blehz..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
joking dude..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
lol

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
its nice to conversate wif u

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
got the element of scrarsm

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
cn work on my scarsm 2

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
than cn sh00t d0wn ani bastard i disgust

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
damnnn gal

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
you sure are fiesty

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
lol

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
nothing unpredictable 2 me

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
heard that al0t

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
dear i even remembered the first time i saw you..the sweet loving innocence....ewww.....i can only bend the truth so much

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
the truth sux..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
the lies bites

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
oh yar..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
one last ting..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
the people fark.. lol..

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
damn gal

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
what is wrong with you this morning?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
didn't i tell you to stop taking female viagra?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
lol


SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
there is?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
i tot onli got blue pill for guys

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
girls onli got pink pill.. tat's menstrual panadol pill

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
hahahaha

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
no la, they do have viagra for women, only they don't call it viagra

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
then wat they call it?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
can't recall, if i did i wouldn't have said female viagra

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
duhhhz

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
haha.. u sucker..

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
yup, i'm definetly a sucker, i love sucking certain thing

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
lol.. sucker

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i prefer the term teat sucker but whatever

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
u sick tit sucker

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:lol

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
oh please...least i

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i'm brave and man enough to admit it

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
most guys would be a pussy and deny it

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
that's worse, they are lying and they are pussies

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
guys r lying pussies.

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
but you forgot one word

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
most guys

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
the word most

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
you know what would sound best? all guys accept helmi are lying pussies

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
hahahha

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
eww..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
crazy tit sucker

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
blehz

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
eh quit it with the tit sucker la...it's getting old

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
realli?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
u mean TIT-SUCKER??

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
getting old?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
i tot TIT-SUCKER is an in thing for u?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
R u sure u referring to TIT-SUCKER?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
seriously, TIT SUCKER??

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
shof you're being irratic

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
frustrated kape?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
on a sun m0rning?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
of course not

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i'm juz busy encoding my videos

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
fine..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
im not entertaining enuff rite?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
G0 AWAY!!

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
awww...don't cry sweetie, let mimi treat you to a cup of coffee kay?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
haha..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
im trying hard n0t t0 puke here

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
lol

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
oh please you won't puke, you just adore me too much to do so

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
please..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
drop dead

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
again with the drop dead, don't you understand? if i did the world will be so much colder, is that what you want?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
there's a purpose for the invention of heater

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
d0nt u ever heard of it?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
oh please, now that's being lame

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long
as I have you here by me says:
no heater can replace the warmth i give to the world

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
puh leez helmi..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
hell's warmth is more likely to be embrace.. rather than urs

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
hey! that's really hurtful okay?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
lol..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
hush little baby d0nt u cry

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
everiting's g0nna be 0rite

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
is that from a song?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
yar mockingbird

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
from eminem

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
no wonder sounded familiar, oh great, you didn't sing me a lullaby you freakin sang me a song from a gangstar rap

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
that's sooo uber "sweet"

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
yar..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
i sing u tat s0ng while pointing a gun on ur head

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
blehz..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
are gays considered guys?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
yeah why?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
haha.. u r gay then

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
what?!

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
the hell for?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
trying to figure out some things bout guys

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
ok.. hear me out here

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
U said Most guys are lying pussies... rite?

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
ahuh

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
Some guys are gays.... rite?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
hello??

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
yeah

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
then, u said that u aint lying pussy rite?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
so u aint most guys..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
that makes u some guys

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
therefore... u r gay

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
Hypothesis true.. conclusion true..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
therefore sentence is true

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
lol

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
lemme ask you something

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
dogs are animals and cats are animals, is it right for me to say some dogs are cats?

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
nope

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
u got it wrong..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
firstly, got to classify the animals to dogs n cats

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
therefor, dogs cn nvr be cats

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
haha..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
ur hypothesis sux..

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
conclusion sux

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
therefore sentence double sux

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
that's my point you retard

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
so i can never be gay

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
if u aint gay, then u lying pussy lar

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
no

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i'm neither

Everything I have in this world, all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you here by me says:
i'm the ONE

SwEeTie I EleCtr0nicZ wind0w-shoppiNg wif Daddie 4 father-daughter Thingy.. Wat's wr0ng wif dat?? says:
u egoistic m0r0n..

writtern @3:56 PM

Thanx..
Sunday, March 20, 2005

Been gettin tonz n t0nz 0f encouragements fr0m ppl ard me 2 stay cheerie n l00k up 4 dem if i nd sum1 2 talk 2.. Haiz.. Shweet peepz.. Tanx l0tz2.. haha.. Im surprise 2 knw tat m0re n m0re ppl g0t 2 knw 0f ma bl0g 0redi.. haha.. Hw the hell dey kn0w, i d0nn0.. but its 0kie.. onli that mayb i g0t 2 sens0red ma bitchin.. blehz.. Wat's new?.. On friday, went to westmall wif ma daddie, g0 buy his hp 2geda2.. Daddy wna get S0ny Ericss0n S700i(actuali he wants k700i but expensive).. then last min, he decided 2 change 2 nokia 6260. He sh0uld tanx me, c0z i saw that n t0ld him that N6260 got more features.. haha.. but kn0win ma dad, the word "thank u" din exist in him but it sh0ws in his smile.. haha.. tat's gd enuff. It takes sum1 cl0se 2 see that.. Then we went off to IMM to buy 2nd hand hp f0r m0mmie but realise that 2nd hd hp is much more expensive than hp wif plan.. S0 wat we d0? We rush back to WestMall SingTel. It was nearin 9.30.. I ran like crazy woman, wearin ma helmet, bouncing up n d0wn. I tried me veri best n s0 glad that ma b00bs din get stuck trying t0 squeeze btwn the small openin of the glass d00r.. haha.. g0t ma m0m her new Panas0nic X400 hp..

That nite till 2day, ma m0m n dad, keep 0n playin wif their hp.. Smsing each other.. *eww-face*.. haha.. ok2.. cnt help it lar.. alwys see ma m0m n dad s0 strict n n0t lovey-dovey.. Sumtimes i w0nder if im g0nna be like that wen im married.. I h0pe n0t. Realli h0pe tat i cn still enj0y g00d sex even wen im 50..*grinz*..

Juz nw, read tis newspaper, bout tis makcik kat NY, wh0 imamkan jemaah lelaki. WTF?? wat's wr0ng wif the followers? Din they kn0w its HARAM for woman to imamkan the guys? I was even angrier to see that they pray at a church.. That Amina sh0uld b sh0t dead! Stupid biatch! Dahlah keliru, mengelirukan.. dah sesat, lagi menyesatkan.. 2 HELL all 0f them.. I may not be a g00d muslim, but i definitely kn0ws wat i preach..

Btw, I wna make a sincere ap0logy to Haziq. I g0t everiting wr0ng. N i knw i sh0uldnt haf been pissed wif u, but to an0ther biatch 0ut there..

2 tat pers0n, be 0riginal lah girl.. takkanlah benda 0rg pun nak pakai2 kan??

btw, check tis out oritey..


A feel good quiz by cerulean_dreams
your name is...
your eyesare dazzling
your hairis envied by many
your smilemakes everyones day
your bodyis to die for
your hugsare loved by all who get them
your kissis forbidden
your loveis forever
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writtern @8:09 PM

Friday, March 18, 2005

Sumting's b0therin me since lunch time.. I g0t this unintenti0nally passing c0mment that I'm a pers0n full 0f anger.. hmm.. L00kin back at ma bl0g. I cant deny that m0z 0f ma entries are fark up entries.. Mayb i sh0uld st0p writing entries wen im n0t feelin happi.. *sigh*.. But tinkin again, i d0nt tink im jz sum1 full 0f anger but 0s0 sum1 full 0f hatred.. Wher has the nice-smiley-g00die girl g0ne t00? Fark.. she's l0st in her past.. Mayb if i havent g0ne thr0 wat ive g0ne thr0, i w0uld still b the girl everi0ne use 2 n0e.. I din smile al0t like i used t0 .. Wat's wr0ng wif me? I miz ma 0ldself. What haf i ev0lved t00? Ppl tink i like being this self, but i d0nt. I tink im hiding behind wat i am n0w..Hiding in ma mess 0f insecurities.. Hiding f0r a l0ng time till i've f0rg0tten wh0 i used 2 b.. Everi m0rnin i wake up, l00k at maself in the mirr0r n i see n0thin.. i feeL n0thin. I cant reach the s0ul deep inside..I feel empty n h0ll0w deep d0wn.. I nd t0 resurface.I nd 2 breathe.. g0d, help me please..

f0r a veri L0ng time, i ask maself wen's the last time im happi..... n till nw, i cnt remember wen..


*Kini, semua langkahku hanya tarian
Segala ukiran senyuman,bagaikan paksaan
Setiap percakapan ku lafaz, ibarat nyanyian
Segala perbuatan se0lah gerak-geri lak0nan*

writtern @5:30 PM

Eye-CandY 4 de dAy
Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Damn.. sum1 looks irresistably n awes0mly charMing in white..
Cant st0p stAring at him.. H0w nt 2? Especially wen i cn C him fr0m wer i sat in the Lt jz n0w.....
TanX 4 being ma Eye Candy f0r the day.. hehe..
G0sh.. U sh0uld weAr white t0p 0ften.. PERI0D..
*Still stuck in Candy Land*

writtern @7:18 PM

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Tanx 2 all th0se wh0 prayed f0r me! *muakz2*... c0z m0mmy n daddy are 0kie-d0kie 0redi.. Yesterday, was having an sms fight wif br0.. kena sc0ldin fr0m him f0r putting up his supposedly hush-hush ph0t0 0n me bl0g.. WATEVER!.. I deleted it 0redi, s0 d0nt b0ther t0 l00k up f0r it. I was damn pissed lor. Y cant tat sum1 mind his 0wn biz.. Realli kayp0hchee. I din mean t0 make fun 0f u guys wat.. (ok2, mayb 0nli like 20%). Its supp0se t0 be a c0mpliment 0k. D0NT PUSH IT!!!!! Haizz... I d0nt even kn0w y b0ther talkin b0ut tis. Waste 0f me time.. Ok2, maybe its ma fault t00. (Yes shah! i'm admittin t0 it okay..*r0lling ma eyes*) Im at fauLt f0r takin that pic.. Is that wat Y0U wna here.. 0r mayb a I'M S0RRIE??.. (watever again!!) Wastin of time quarrelling wif small kids..

M0VING 0N.......

Yesterday, went 0ut wif helmi watchin B00geyman.. Blardy idiot st0ry.. The anticipati0n level was like w0ah.. Cnt handle man.. But 0verally, it sux.. It d0esnt mk sense at all.. But if u wna watch sumting that makes u terperanjat2, g0 watch it.. I gave it a rating of 10/10 for terperanjat-terperanjatness. Cant wait to watch The Eye 10.. L00ks blardy scary.. haha.. I should stop watchin h0rr0r m0vie especially after LAST NITE!.. haha.. I cnt realli sleep last nite siah.. Keep 0n waking up, n start imagining things.. Imaginin this, imaginin that, till i cnt take it anim0re n Z00M.. i move to ma sis bed.. S0 its like 2 girls sharing a bed.. (Wokay, d0nt tink dirrrtttyyy ar.).. haha.. Then the next m0rnin, ma sis was saying that last nite was extremely h0t and she th0ught that 0ur fan aint w0rking anim0re. I felt s0 guilty dat i t0ld her i was sharing her bed.. She laugh n0nstop n called me Crazy n childish.. Fine.. I am.. at times. Cant help it f0r havin a gd imagination wat.. It all cums in this package.. S0 d0nt c0mplain ppl, i am wat i am.. .. haha..
(Btw, got this guy in frenster who post a bulletin bout anti-animal abuse and he puts there bloody muthafuka.. I emailed him n ask h0w he kn0ws the pers0n's name. Then he told me everi 0ne kn0ws tat. I was w0nderin mayb i was the 0nly stupid girl wh0 din knw bout tat. Then tis m0rnin i realised, it was M0THER FUCKER.. WTF.. I sux.. sheesh, an0ther blooper..)*blushin'*

writtern @9:23 AM

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Last thursday nite, aint the normal nite.. Ma dad n m0m was quarelling big time. Seri0usly. I hate wen this happened.. I wasnt there wen they quarrelled. Haikal was. He called me while i'm in bio lect n i c0uldnt come hm straight away coz i was having ma test.. Wen i reached hm, m0m n dad was d0ing their own work. I was pissed.. What's with the pretendin', man?.. If they cn break the hell l00se in fr0nt 0f haikal? y n0t me??.. Kesian Haikal. He's still y0ung. I hate it wen parents quarrel infr0nt 0f their own children, especially young ones.. After dinner, i sat n talked to mom.. She started talking loudly, n someh0w, wat she told me, made dad angry, n they quarrelled again.. I was s0 angry. I pulled Haikal into ma r00m, n locked ma d00r n told him to sit inside n finished his h0mew0rk n d0nt get out 0f ma r00m, 0r he'll get IT.. They quarrelled for the next 30 min n wen silent.. Dad tried to pujuk ma m0m but she dint give in. I d0nn0 wat t0 say.. They are still not talkin wif each 0ther til 2day.. its been 2 days 0redi. (Pray for ma family ok?..tanx)


I d0nt undstand y ppl hurt each 0ther when they love each other? I think its becoz they love each other that makes it hurts s0 much wen they quarel. S0metimes, wen i see ma sis quarrel wif her bf, i thanked g0d that i'm single n d0nt haf t0 g0 thr0 all that.. Oh god, i d0nn0 if i'm bec0ming cynical bout relati0nshp.. I haf this rough idea of me gr0wing 0ld all al0ne.. haiz..
N wen i see ma parents quarrel, i think to myself. Ma parents are religious ppl n they did this.. What bout me? Im n0t even cl0se t0 Allah. Im not as religious as them. Marriage will be a disaster? I d0nn0.. I seriously d0nt.. I hate t0 p0nder b0ut uncertainties. F0r example, if a man married a woman.. We say that they are right f0r each 0ther. How the hell they kn0w bout that? What if they g0t divorced n the man married another woman n live happily ever after. I supposed the 2nd 0ne is the right for him, right?? Ma qn is how the hell the man suppose to know that wen he's still married wif his first wife, that his first wife aint the right one f0r him bt the next woman in his life is?? Confusion..confusion.. I think t00 much.. That's wat everib0dy told me..

I d0nt deny, that i l0ve to think 0ver stuffs like this.. Make u realise sumting that u nvr tot u could even think about in the 1st place.. haha.. N i certainly n0t want t0 make the mistakes 0f others who had made those mistakes.. I'll definitely try n0t t00.. F0r example, i learnt 0ne thing bout ugly n handsome guys.. They still function wif eg0s.. i juz realised sumtin bout ma sis's bf.. I still remembered ma sis alwys tellin me that its easier to haf an ugly bf c0z cn c0ntr0l him n he'll definitely listen to u.. then lately, wen that guy s0rt 0f g0t the green light fr0m ma parents that he cn tunang ma sis, nearly everyday, ma sis comes hm crying, saying tat she quarreled wif him. N she told me that he is beginnin to be different, wna take c0ntr0l.. I was grinning. I pitied her.. Hw cn she be s0 dumb? Its guys wat.. They cn pretend to be s0 blardy nice c0z they d0nn0 if the girl is their's yet. N wen the green light c0mes, the man supposedly take c0ntr0l. WATEVER! N0w ma sis is stuck wif a dominating ugly guy.. Oh god, dont let it happen to me.. If i'm gonna get 2 be dominated by a guy, hell let it be a gd looking guy *smilez*.. haha.. blehz..

i think i irritate alot of ppl who read ma blog.. haha.. u d0nt like eh?? Press the farkin next blog button at the top rite hand corner lah.. Wat s0 difficult??.. Buzz 0ff! Oh yar, to that particular sum1 out there, at least i dint post tat particular picture ok.. I cn d0 it, u knw.. Better be nice wif me.. *evil-smile* muahaha..

writtern @12:07 PM

W0w.. I d0nn0 tat!
Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Yesterday during maths lect, i was sitting beside Khai, as usual, n im eating this bread that smells milky.. Then khai told me she hate milk and she never drink milk b4. Feeling surprised, i said," Oh really?".. Then I remembered that i alwys got fooled by her b4, (like once, i totally believe that eating sweets will juz make me sleepy rather than keep me awake).. s0, i said,"Penipu besar seh".. Then she explained that it was true. She never drink milk since she's baby.. Her m0ther even used a small pump to force the milk d0wn into her m0uth, when she's a baby.. She's been drinkin ribena since young.. W0w, that's something new tt i knw bout Khai.. Then i told her that its amazing that she never drink milk, yet she's not short. Then Khai said she was very short in pri sch00l. S0 short that when she's in p5, the nurses send her f0r checkup at someplace in Outram, n the doctors there nearly want to inject male hormones in her body to make her grow!!!..

haha.. Beat that. I kn0w something bout Khai now!.. Its great to kn0w m0re bout somebody.. Haiz.. cnt say much bout other MC2 peepz, coz i dint spent much time wif them at all.. Well, let me see, bout Sha, i kn0w that Sha's gonna get tunang but donno wen, i know that Nisa change her blogskin again, i know that Fash dint bring free starbux coffee yesterday, like he did last week(ok2.. he dint come to sch at all), i knw that Fash,Nisz n Fa go for maths tut only once b4.. Bout bob n ahmad, i cnt say aniting much except that Bob is still weird(terroristly weird) though aproachable n0w, and ahmad is still a horny bastard..

You all muz b wondering y rite?.. Last thurs, i came sch early and bumped onto Mudd n bob. Then mudd talks kinky n bob said that its only mudd who do that kind of thing. Then mudd dared bob to swear that he nvr masturbate b4, n bob juz kept quite(oooh.... WOKAY..).. Mudd laughed this victory laugh.. I juz stared at mudd n i wna say sumting but i juz keep it to ma self.. I was about to say that though bob may haf masturbate b4, i bet tat the no of times he masturbate is hell less than u,Mudd... haha.. funny lar Mudd.. He might talk dirrrttyyyy but he walks ard in sch wif his praying sarong.. yeah2.. dont judge others..

Im strugglingly studying bio.. so many facts to understand.. Going roller coaster baby.. N bout yazid rite, fash.. There's a reason y his attached wif the girl rite?... coz i cnt mk him as happy as he is wif her. I knw tat n i glad that he knws tat too.. But sometimes, i cnt help being selfish wen it comes to him.. blehz.. i shld knw wher i stand.. N i d0nt DEFINITELY want to spoil ma frenship wif him.. Furtherm0re, i believe that its interesting to flirt ard within the thin line of being friends and sumtin m0re than tat..blehzz again..

yeah2.. btw, take alook at the picture at the bottom.. I stole from ma br0's comp. Muz take it lah dey, for viewing purposes only ar.. check out manhunt (still in the making).. btw, ma br0 is the 3rd from the left..

writtern @10:20 AM

Ma siLat b0y is back.. back in ma life..
Monday, March 07, 2005

Yazid called me last nite.. yeah, Yazid, my long lost bestfren back to th0se pj years.. G0d..i miz him s0 much. Has been thinking b0ut him like many times. The last time we talked was when the day we takin A level result. That time, he called me and said that he'll miss me a lot. I asked him y? Then he said, he's n0t takin the result wif me, c0z he d0nt want me t0 feel sad f0r him.. I tried 2 change his mind but he's s0 persistent 0n takin his result al0ne. I juz let him be wif his decision. I d0nn0 that tat day was the last day we saw each 0ther.... I th0t i l0st him c0z he changed his n0.. Even his buddy Hasyim din kn0w his new n0.. what kind0f fren is that rite??..

When last nite he called. I was s0 happy that i can feel tears in my eyes... Its great to hear his v0ice again. Th0ugh theres t0ns 0f awkward m0ments during the c0nversati0n, juz the sound of his breaths on the ph0ne, makes me feel tat he's here wif me.. I juz wanna cry... haha. As always.. I kn0w i haf a l0t 0f cl0se frens. But wif yaz, its different. He c0nnects t0 me em0ti0nally.. N he saw me thr0 many things back then..

Some part 0f the C0nversati0n:

Yaz : Sh0f, u kn0w i miz u rite?
Me : yeah.. i think.. but u left me. U left syim n me, rite?
Yaz : That time, i tink its best to leave b0f 0f u. My life was hectic back then. I nd time to settle
things d0wn. I kn0w it s0unds selfish.
Me : I d0nn0, im so pissed wif u.. H0w cn u f0rget us?
Yaz : N0. I dint. I still remeber tat day.
Me : What day? ....... (thinkin2)........ oh.. u mean tat day i cried.
Yaz : U cried many times b4, gurl..
Me : haha ( 0h.ok .. paiseh2).. u mean that last day 0f sch00l?
Yaz : yeah.. Im s0rree i made u cry.
Me : Its n0t juz u. Its everyting that's happenin in my life tat time.
Yaz : Oh k.. S0 h0w's sch00l? Many 0f my frens kn0w u.. U muz be fam0us ar?
Me : haha.. really? which 0ne ur fren? (start kembanging)
Yaz : u kn0w u cn be fam0us f0r the wr0ng reas0ns rite?
Me : har? (kembang bubble burst)
Yaz : haha.. juz j0king. but my frens d0 kn0w u.. Any really cl0se fren d0wn there?
Me : Cl0se fren like guyfren i like isit?
Yaz : Cl0se fren like u n me... n syim.
Me : (figuring 0ut what he meant).... n0.. we are close in big group. But n0thing close like us.
Yaz : oh k..
Me : giggle (d0nn0 4 wat.. felt stupid f0r a while)
Yaz : U still s0und like the little girl i kn0w.. haha
Me : hey.. im a lady okie..
Yaz : U r alwys small girl 2 me..
Me : smilezzzzzzzzz....


Haha.. Im glad that some thing is back on track.. yeah, the Right track.. B4 i went t0 sleep, i thought bout th0se times i spent wif him, back in 0ld pj days. H0w we quarrelled bout small stuff. H0w i made him miserable f0r making him ch00se btwn spending time wif me or wif Ifa, h0w he made me smilez by saying beautiful things..There's one time during PJ days, wen we din spent recess time 2geda. I d0nt even b0thered t0 l00k up f0r him. Aft sch00l, we met up as usual ard 3. He told me to haf lunch 1st b4 g0ing hm. I said I've eaten 0redi. He said if I'm sure or n0t, c0z he saw me drank mil0 0nli. I was sh0cked. I said I dint see him. He smile n said," I always see u. Its u that hu din see me."

Thinkin back again, i realized i muz haf taken him f0r granted then.. H0w stupid n selfish i am. H0w could i? after all we went thro? Hes seen the beautiful n ugly part 0f me. haha.. I still remember that he said i looked ugly when i cried.. blehzz, whatever...

L00kin back at what ive written ab0ve, i w0nder if we are in love wif each 0ther.. i d0nn0 bout his part. But i kn0w i love him n i d0nt nd a relati0nship t0 make me feel l0ved n cared n feel special.. F0r n0w, i tink.. for n0w...

writtern @9:07 AM

Sigh..
Friday, March 04, 2005

I've been s0 busy lately.. G0t 2 tests that i th0t i'm g0nna flung after i done it. N luckily i passed 1 so far.. Alhamdulillah.. Im still in the midst of my programming. Got to do Hangman game.. When i told ppl, they alwys th0t it was c00l 2 d0 programming.. (Yeah rite). The 0nli c00lness ive ever felt s0 far in programmin is sitting f0r h0urs in the freakin cold comp lab, juz 2 figure out the rite codes.. N wen u th0t it was like goddess perfectness, the TA marker can juz scrap of ur points ezly over trivial stuffs like if i dint put trim meth0d 0r my codes are longer than his. Wtf.. Such a pain in the ass.. Luckily my TA helper s0 kind. I keep bugging him wif qns thr0 mail. 0ne day i cn email him like 3 times.. haha.. he's s0 helpful. TanK g0d f0r that..

Yesterday, ma wh0le family had a discussion bout something that has been botherin ma dad.. I cant help but cry.. Its ma dad's siblings.. G0t pr0b wif m0ney again n dad feels obligated t0 help. When i t0ld dad that im dissappointed wif my uncles n aunties, he was sad and said that mayb i d0nt undstand h0w cl0se siblings cn be.. That's n0t ma p0int. I was crying bec0z i pity ma dad. He's gr0wing 0lder n his younger siblings had nvr st0pped b0thering him wif pr0bs. Cant they leave ma dad al0ne. They all haf their 0wn family, why cant they w0rk it out juz like ma parents w0rk it out f0r m0re than 20+ years?.. After the discussion, we did our Isyak prayer and then i juz hugged n kiss him on the cheek. I dint say anithing.. Its like w0rds stuck in my thr0at.. I l0ve dad s0 much & I believe even m0re than i l0ve ma m0m. But y isit s0 difficult f0r me t0 say that to him? I cn never say it 0ut. I cn juz sh0w ma feelings thr0 d0ing things that makes him happy n pr0ud 0f me.. Y isit s0 difficult? I juz d0nt understand... I really d0nt.

writtern @5:50 PM