My initial plan was to post bout my happy meet-up sessions wif my beloved close frens (CG & SB), where we went for our heavy lunch at Cahaya followed by a movie(Narnia) at cinei, their forever crappy n lame jokes, the few updates we shared bout each other n yada yada.. but somehow later in the evening, SB has to just spoil everithing!
firstly i dont understand how cn someone u care so much bout juz doesnt make sense most of the time, not forgetting how an A-S-S they could be.. SB, u r my best fren for 2 yrs nw.. Everibody in PJ knws tat. Its unfair for u 2 make me pretend that our frenship doesnt exist juz so that ur gf will not be threatened by it . wth ! I knw how much u treasure our frenship but we cant go forever hiding.. She has to live wif it. FULLSTOP. N i super H-A-T-E it when u "threaten" me by saying our frenship is at a stake.. N u knw that i will do aniting in this world that i could for u, but for once, u had to be fair to me too.. N since i promised u that i would delete the post bout our meeting, i have to do it aniways.. Last bt not least, im sorree that i dont feel sorree u broke up wif her. I knw u deserve better.. stop blaming urself pls. she's juz not worth it.. sigh.. bt i knw deep down inside u'll still go back to her n nothing i cn do about it.. See, how i live wif that? y cnt her too?
Sheesh.. n i thot frenship is simple..
N to that someone.. u made it sweet as long as it has lasted.. i still dont understand y the silent treatment tho'. I deserve an explaination fr u.. u knw i do.. i guess i had a taste of my own medicine.. thanx for everithing..
I used 2 haf this funny idea that once im ready to commit, the right guy will just pop up n i will start my fairytale journey.. but somehow, it doesnt equate that way.. u may be ready, but the right guy might not, or the right guy still lost somewhere, or the right guy is in the last position of ur Q-up list..n so on n so forth..
But like mr Ben-n-Jerry has said, tings happen for a reason n u'll learn something fr everithing.. sigh.. sometimes its easier said than done rite?.. bt i dont deny that im amazed by how fast i am able to pull myself up again. blehz.. I guess its a bit easier when u force urself to rationalise things n when u haf tons of gfs to "slap" u up n down n to smile n laugh with.. Tanx babes.
writtern @7:54 PM
finally.. pixies fr azura..
hope cn hang out (at her house) again.. but definitely wif more of me babes..
introducing azura n me.. haf been having love hate relationship since like forever.. erks.. but she alwys manage to make me smile wif her merepeks, which range fr her crazy singings, to her unstoppable complainings n
definitely not forget her
smilez.. hahahah..
next.. syha... 
azura's faithful sidekick..
she loves to take photos but claims she doesnt knw how to pose.. ahakz..
n we definitely haf a thing for fudgy sundae n bof of us hate pedas stuffs.. hehe.. i enjoy "crying" wif her everitime we eat azura's dad's famous spaghetti.. (photos of us posing maut.. bleh)
but bof azura n syha are big fans of scary movies.. while im NOT.. boohoo.. its super sweet of azura to prepare me lots of baby cushions for me to take cover if im really scared.. haha.. I hate scary movies but i still wna watch..hmmmm.. weird..
(sheesh.. making ourselves at home.. tak senonoh seh.. hehe .. see, my face so cramp rite..)
(here's the pixie of me n syha wif our fudgy ice cream)
wheeee.. syha was kinda pissed hers was melting very very fast.. haha.. we thot we cn go up to 3-4 rounds of this, but then kan......... we only ate once....... haha.. so much of trying to aim higher lah eh..
hope to do this again soon.. Insya Allah..
writtern @1:04 AM
Glad i called Ain (like finally!) juz now.. hoit! dont laugh okie.. its a big achievement dok. Me call someone? blehz.. its alwys been them calling me lah.. yeah yeah.. me n my big-E.. i guess tat cn be kind of a prob..
& im super happy to knw im not C-R-A-Z-Y.. n its normal to feel that way..
n im bored rotting myself at home on a Sat.. it wasnt realli tat bad coz i got to relax n watch wat i want.. N i was happily watching tis Tsunami doc drama, until my mom joined in n decided to become the 2nd commentator of tat doc.. imagine how irritating that could be.. its like watching a japanese movie wif a korean voice dubbed over it.. blehz.. Too bad my initial sat plan was cancelled coz of some kenduri u haf to attend.. sigh.. i dont think i will be seeing u anitime soon .. remind me again bout weekend bf.. boohoohoo..
sheesh, cnt stop whining seh..
PS: C-A-L-L me!! (dropping a BIG n OBVIOUS hint)
ooh yup2.. btw, ain told me bout a Ben n Jerry outlet at suntec.. so i guess i knw where to blanja tat someone oredi.. *coughBlehzcough* haha.. super glad we talked! tsk tsk tsk..u n ur scarsms forever lah.. argh.. eh, im telling u, better be nice to angel if u want a big tub of BJ! muahaha
writtern @9:58 PM
boo...
new blog layout.. hehe.. made fr scratch.. no help, nt even fr fashie.. n i din forget to sign off my name on my trademark angel.. hur hur..
hectic week.. meetings meetings meetings.. well some "meetings" i din really regret going to.. haha.. n tons of food eaten this week.. sheesh.. N i love azura to bits.. i love her for putting fudgy sundae on my ice cream.. u r the love of my life lah babe.. blehz.. n the best part was still the horror movies we watched.. erks..i remembered being certified as penakut.. haha.. nothing new.. btw hasyim talked to me for a while on the phone.. heard they going out for a movie this sunday.. hmmm.. are u guys gonna ask me along?!! boohoohoo..
tot its one week.. but then its 4 days.. n then it went
back to endless days..
cnt stop thinking..
been smiling.blushing.smiling.blushing
n counting the days..
wish im more selfish.. maybe ive been..
n i knw u r thinking of me too.. erks..
maybe?
okie.. better stop whispering sweet nothings to the
wind..
haiz..if only the wind cn become my angel..
tho i cnt be wif u at the moment..
im happy i cn see u
everitime i close my eyes..
im missing u.. *smilez*
writtern @12:30 AM
Im wrong.. so wrong.. u guys are still a big part of my life.. tanx.. no matter how long ive been MIA, (according to bai it has been 1 yr), u guys still feel strongly for me.. tanx alot seriously.. ive never felt better.. n i miss my own personal DJ bai.. hehe.. n im glad i met up wif ain at the same time.. n im super super happy things btwn ain n bai is one-notch better.. alhamdulillah *smilez*
So yesterday was Nad's b'day celebration.. lots of food n not forgetting cam-whoring.. the cake was superb.. from Prima deli.. the bbq wen well, tanx to the macho guys.. haha.. n of course to Sri n Ika.. the women behind it all....... u guys did a splendid job!! well done.. n i definitely love the cookie i brought home.. haha. N Happy b'day Nad!
Btw,something happened last nite... felt different.. im glad i stayed longer.. was kinda scared i'll be grounded coz i went home at 3+am..bt i tink i live for the moment.. haha.. it was sweet n comforting.. really sweet.. something to smile about. Tell me im crazy pls.. hehe
writtern @10:15 AM
Yesterday was the first ever meeting ive attended tat ended very fast then expected.. w00h00.. tanx rab! u r 0ne amazingg woman.. haha.. thot i went hm straight after tat, but then again, i nvr follow wat i planned.. so there i was , having a BK late dinner wif eo , rab, anita, su n fairuz.. wheeeeeee.. n guess wat? i got to eat the choco sundae piee.. so after su n fairuz left, the rest of us kept talking bout lots of stuffs, basically bitching.. n i like! haha... cnt remember the last time i did it.. hmmmmm..
the day ended wif a nice cab ride all tanx to Rab the saviour.. its my first ever C&G cab ride.. its this new cab where they work on gas nt petrol.. then the apek driver was bragging n bragging bout hw lucky he was to be chosen to ride the 1st batch of that car.. hw he save at least 10bucks on petrol.. how the car was freaking smooth.. yada2.. i was amazed by rab. How she cn endure tat apek's non stop hits seh.. i got a headache n kept quite most of the time.. actually trying hard nt to puke.. i donno wassup wif me n cab rides.. since young.. i cn never feel comfortable in cabs..
So when rab finally got home, she wished me gd luck for the rest of my journey wif this DJ Apek.. so there i was..... trying hard nt to puke, but at the same time, trying to be nice wif him.. i was going.. okie, ic, really?, oh no wonder.. all over n over again.. haha.. But the cab driver was super nice.. when he dropped me off at my void deck, there was dis group of drunk malay guys.. i was kinda scared actually, then the cab driver said he'll wait for me to go inside the lift before he drove off.. sheesh.. one nice apek ar.. but too bad.. he din cancel my midnight charges.. haha.. so 24bucks it is..
2day going off to celebrate Nad's b'day.. jauh seh... hujung tanjung.. argh.. sometimes living in the west juz sux.. maybe should start scouting for potential chauffer.. blehz..
btw.. FASHIE!! where the toot are u?? I knw lah u dark man of the dark side but dont go MIA on me .. u gotta help me wif my new bloggie!!!! freaking frustrated oredi.. haha.. dnt juz go online for ur "project research" ler.. hw unfair! hurmpz..
n cn sumone pls tell me im crazy.. i watched movie alone for the second time oredi.. haha. I tink im amazing too..hehe.. but seriously, when u watch alone, u cn realli concentrate on the movie.. erks.. i tink when compared to watching wif the opposite sex.. haha.. blehz.. Lucky i haf a date wif yana for Narnia.. wheeeee.. u better dont bubble me baby..
writtern @2:43 PM
I knw its 4 in the morning... but i cant sleep. Had a rough nite just nw.. i hate it.. i hate myself.. i hate it when i questions alot of things n i hate it most when i cnt find the answers for them. Its just exhausting. As exhausting as trying to be the positively happy person everione thot i am. im not.. I dnt understand y some ppl made decisions tat could hurt somebody they love, n to even think that you love them in the first place, juz doesnt make sense.. I hope things will b better s00n.. im juz too tired to cry myself to sleep, coz my worries will nvr go away.......
for the first time... i nd an angel....
writtern @4:02 AM
Was glad to finally catch up wif my MC2 peepz, after like such a long time.. hehe.. We met up for Mudd's bro's weddings.. n guess who i met there? I saw my ex-swiss senior..si Adigun's batch. There was Rafi, shah, fahmi n two other guys.. Saw tat rafi made me wna laugh.. haha.. teringat zaman dulu. One ting i cn nvr forget bout him was that he sux at asking me to be his gf.. He claims he asked me thrice but i cn only remember it as one.. N he wrote me the most fark up pantun.. It goes like this ......
Itik gelek
ayam dagang
adik cantik
abang sayang
erks... i haf to forgive him coz he's fr Normal Tech.. haha.. n haf to credit him for at least try rite? lolz...
After tat jemputan.. we went to sha's engagement ceremony.. she's super preety.. n nvr seen her so happy.. n we talk n talk n talk.. i miss her tons.. havent seen her since the "last departure"..
N im glad i din ate alot.. blehz
I guess tat's y i was very hungry last nite..
Talking bout last nite, i was kinda bothered by the conversation i had.. im confused.. It juz doesnt make sense hw i cn help others straight their problems n i cant even straighten my own.. Things cn be simple if only i tink it as it is.. but y the confusion?.. y m i scared?..sheesh.. complications!!.. If only i cn juz dont give a damn wat others say...
N i knw tat this thing will be a problem sooner or later... I tink the choice is up to me nw to choose.. Cnt help feeling sorry to drag the other person in.. I promise i'll straight it out as soon as i cn.. All i wna say to whoever is reading this, if u knw u r my fren, u haf my word that i do care bout u..
Anwy, its not the end of the world yet rite?.. so better c0ntinue be the lil me everibody knws.. smile shof... :)
dont u knw sometimes angel needs comf0rt?
writtern @3:13 PM
Rules of the game:
1. Post 5 weird/random stuff abt yourself
2. At the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!So here's 5 really, really weird/random stuffs:
so here goes......
1) I can change my clothes up to 7 times before finally finding the perfect clothings.. Seriously, I dont bother to plan, coz i would never end up wearing the clothes i planned to wear.. blehz.. n ppl alwys ask me if i plan my outfit everiday..
2) My first diary, which i called the Black book, coz everi single entries written are filled with hatred,anger n dissappointments.. theres not even one entry about happy occasion. N the entry with the most vulgar words written (seriously alot), i would highlight that entry with a red marker n put a remark- UNCENSORED..
3) I keep a collection of poems i wrote myself and all the poems were written after a bad relationship.. blehz again
4) People who r very2 close to me will knw hw diff for me 2 say NO.. So everitime when i went out on a date, n if it happens that i dont find the person im dating interesting n i dont wna ever go out wif him again, n when he wants to send me hm, i'll say ok and then i'll pick any block(near my place of course) n let him send me there. Erks, im scared of being stalked by him if i totally ignored him after that..
5) Dont be surprise, i alwys haf my jack knife wif me everywhere i go.
so the people im gonna tag is my bro, hana, ain, azri senget n dilah..
writtern @7:18 PM
2day i am s0 pr0ud of myself coz i did two mega things alone..
1stly.. i went to upgrade my own phone myself.
2ndly.. i watched a movie alone.
haha.. it felt different doing things myself.. the feeling of taking charge, choosing, making ur own decisions and all kinda excite me a little.. Im amazed that i dont even feel self-conscious like i thot i alwys do when im alone.. wheeee
Watched Harry Potter and G.O.F juz now..Call me slow or wat, but i prefer reading the book first b4 watching.. it was amazing but i din deny im a lil dissappointed that it dint meet the expectati0n i had especially after reading the book. But then again, if i want the m0vie to follow 100% of the book, it wont be 2 1/2 hrs anim0re rite? Cho n Cedric kinda disappointing coz i expect them to be realli realli gorgeous.. Draco bec0ming cuter wif his new hair style.. Hermi0ne's hair wasnt the old bushy all-over-the-place hair but rather silky wif soft curls.. oh.. Victor Krum was ooh-la-la.. kinda sexy n he did turn me 0n at some point in the m0vie.. haha
I realised that young boys haf serious bladder problems. They cn visit the toilet thrice during the movie.. n they definitely caused a lot of distraction during the movie..
N i discovered something today.. My mom din trust me to be al0ne.. blehz... donno for what reason.. din bother to ask her.
Rite nw im wondering who's gonna be my source of entertainment tonite.. hehehe.. any volunteers?? lil angel wil
be so bored..
Btw i better blog bout the 5 weird/random things i did. Tanx a lot yana.. :P
writtern @6:32 PM
soooooooooooo... what has lil shofie been up to this holz??
Hmmmmm.. n0thing much....
except ive been enj0ying sitting at h0me.. Weird.. haha
but its okie..
I stucked my nose into 2 harry p0tter's book, the Goblet 0f fire n the 0rder 0f phoenix.. n i cant wait for the Half blood Prince b00k..
ooh yeah.. daddy bought me those b00k. H0w sweet cn he be?? hmmm.. very....
N yeaps, i signed up for v0lunteer sessi0n at a lib near me.. haha.. nope2.. i dint offer to help rearrange book (like duh!!me??).. but i offered to help with the activity groups f0r kids.. *beams*.. yeah2.. i miss hanging wif lil cuties.. sigh..
N the routine stuffs like PS2-ing, mapling, gymming is still in pr0gress..
Hadi just went out f0r pr0m just nw.. he looks ad0rable.. haha. 0f course wif my help lah.. Hmm.. let me list d0wn the few things i help him wif..
1) of course i bought the whole outfit for him (still considering if that'll be a hutang)
2) bought him contact lenses n taught him hw to use.. (hw selenger cn he be)
3) trim n wax his hair (yeah, i still do that for my br0s once in a while)
4) lent him my expensive perfume.. (erks.. i just haf this thing bout real man who wears ladies' perfume.. i kinda find it sexy)
last but not least, be his ph0t0grapher at h0me.. sheesh..
but its ok.. im happi to see the end pr0duct.. n i knw hes glad he has a sis like me!! (n he bragged to everi0ne bout me.. nyehehe)
N my other bro, haikal, he just bought his sch00l unif0rm n he's trying out his first ever long pants..
wth.. w0nder if u guys did that t00.. hahaha... zaman sec sch00l ni..tsk tsk tsk..
its funny h0w the guys like their pants long n the girls like their skirts shorter n shorter.. blehz
N he definitely has started to gr0w pimples here n there.. ewww.. hygiene pls, for goodness sake!!
Oh oh.. here's the HOTTEST updates of all......
Hadi is g0nna be a MAT Civil Defence.. eww MAT CD.. omg omg omg
That's my worst nightmare.. haha.. No 0ffence to th0se who served NS as CD men, but ull definitely knw that its infested wif Mats.. lol
n he's going soon... this 11 Jan..
sheesh.. i havent had enuff time to cabut all the bulu on his legs.. bleh
n im so g0nna miss irritating him.. haiz..
but im glad he w0nt be s0mewhere called Pulau Tekong..
s0me0ne t0ld me the army men bathe naked t0gether there...
eeeee.. unimaginable..
writtern @5:51 PM
