Down with the rain
Sunday, July 30, 2006
So everybody is in everbody elses' nerves lately. ah, wth. I hate it wen things are like this. If onli i can shut my eyes and be in my own lala land. boohoo. Ive been pressurising myself out these days.blehz . Now i know how tiring being a perfectionist can be. The expectations and all. I just cant imagine if im planning my own wedding. boleh pecah otak seh. I guess i'll get a wedding planner to handle it. But then again, i din like doing things that got to do with me, without my own personal touch. And furthermore, i tend to be proud of myself when what i've planned and worked my ass off for turned out perfectly fine Ok, realistically, maybe if theres a lil glitches that arent within my control happen, its still near-perfection in my eyes.
Sorry, i know ive been talking in codes. haha. I've been doing that to everybody who is close to me. I just din want my loved ones to worry, coz ultimately, i know i can work this out beautifully, make it the most memorable day for all those who will be there, insya Allah. Its just that i tend to get affected (easily) by many other non-important things.
And i wish i could just be selfish for once. As long as i dont end up hurting anybody in between, in getting what i want sudah. But is that possible? hmm.. Whatever it is, as we all know, we can plan everything, but ultimately its God's decisions.
So its 4 more days till my sweet ayang will be back. And a few more days till we are one step closer. *smilez*. lalala...
U miss me, I need you.
