Last nite was a great nite out with Bai, Adigun and Ain. Bai and Adigun will definitely be the couple who makes me laugh. Tengok kerenah dorang dua je dah macam episod gelora. *grinz* And the talk I had with Ain at BK, was uplifting. Simply for the fact that i know she listens and she simply understood not just from my point of view but from those who are around me as well. I know there exist people who are simply hypocrites. They told you how happy they are for you, but at your back, they talked craps,jump to their own conclusions and tried their best to spoil your happiness. hah. Immature. And this is definitely why i dont acknowledge them as friends. My perfect life doesnt need these low-lives. They make no difference to me if they exist or not. In conclusion, envy is their problem. *scoff*.
Aniways, im amazed that Ain's family has the same thinking as mine. I know many people these days are not into getting engaged i donno for what reason. If they think its a waste of money, but hey, sedekah orang dengan makanan waste ke? Unless you're lavishing it with hotel dinner tu lainlah cerita kan.. lolz. And i did it using my own money, where rather than spending it on shopping for my own stuffs or waste it for some other nonsense, i spent it on food. I am after all.. unselfish.
Furthermore i can never apprehend the idea of jumping from a relationship to marriage. Dont really know how it works though. If its for a short period of time like less than a year its understandable, but making a supposedly boy-and-girl relationship last for years till you get married, erks.. ok. Im not trying to put down any couples who are going through this but it looks like a big and vague leap. I think people tend to exaggerate like "oh, we are serious" and "oh,we have already made plans to get married" (and it'll be like in 5 years time, *puzzled*) , but when there's no serious action taken that could be acknowledged by both families and anibody around, it looks like a big bubble to me. I know my baby is definitely serious when he said he wants to get engaged to me before marriage. For goodness sake, no guys will get engage to a girl if he aint serious, but having a relationship with a girl will be like b-r-e-a-t-h-i-n-g to them.
But then again, i guess people have their own issues to why they chose not to and definitely their family plays a whole lot of influences in their decisions. From what i can come to conclusion with, it will root down to thinking it'll be a waste or money problems or commitment phobia(pity..pity) or possibly "not-the-right-time-yet" . Well, ive done my own checking, and i dont see why shouldnt i . After all, its what us and most importanly our parents want too. Knowing how my parents are traditional people who never acknowledge a BGR(mine and along's and it better applies to Hadi's and Haikal's as well). hehe.
Last nite was also the ever first time that i went to town without shopping. And its been 1 month since i last shopped. Money is kinda tight for me(apparently ain and bai also *winks*). Sigh.. I know surely baby will volunteer to bring me shopping knowing how much shopping(and food and having him as my company of course) makes me smile. But na-ah, i aint like those girls who dragged their other-halves around to buy for them what they want( a simple example will be a pair of shoes) and erm.. worst still kan, during his pay-day lagi.. Tsk tsk tsk. Even when i have the luxury to do so, my modesty is what i hold on to.
Oooh, on a happy happy note, im all hyped out about the list im supposed to crop up with. Its a list of what we wanna do, what we want our other-halves do for us and what we wanna do for the other. yeah.. Im able to come up with a long list for well, that particular one. *grinz*.. Though Love gonna be back for only a short time, we'll work it out together for sure. And im missing every inch of him. Only god knows how badly.
Btw, Hadi started his NS attachment at Jurong FireStation already. Lucky him. Heard that he will be working only for 10days and his pay will be like 1.2k.damn. But i know its super tiring. He told me on an average, there'll be at least 3-4 calls and there's a limited amount of time to sleep. Aniways, i was doing the laundry just now. While I was folding his bundle of CD uniforms and shirts, i came across this shirt with wordings at the back - "FIREMAN'S PRAYERS" . It wrote..
When I'm called to duty, God. Wherever flames may rage
Give me strength to save a life wherever be its age
Help me to embrace a little child before it is too late
Or save an older person from the horror of that fate
Enable me to be alert to hear the weakest shout
And quickly and efficiently to put the fire out
I want to fill my calling land to give the best in me
guard my every neighbour and protect their property
And if according to your will I have to lose my life
Please bless with you protecting hand, my children and spouse.
I guess sometimes, we tend to overlook some things. It has never cross my mind that these people have real and dangerous jobs.They are more than just Mats or men in uniform. And we need them, maybe not now, but later, maybe not us, but our love ones.*smilez*
And hey!!!!! someone's burfdae coming soon. Cant wait to go to her party, knowing there'll definitely be our favourite food, her dad's most pedas spaghetti, her famous sardine roll and our all time fav ice-cream and chocolate fudge. lolz . And ooh, i'd promised her to bring along 100 strippers to her house on that day. hehe. So yeah, application is now open for those men who are interested. Can just email or call and please please attach your sexiest pose(the one where even halle berry will droolz) okie? *winks*
