Monday, January 09, 2006
Juz came back from my first ever 21st birthday bash.. n its not one of my fren's but it's helmi's indian fren's.. So imagine me, (the self-declared not-friendly-with-the-kelawars babe), went to this Indian party, where the played all the banghra songs + abit of B.E.P (n i swear i nearly shake my bootie while sitting n listening), n I ate their North Indian food (which was superbly rich in carb n loaded with kari n yogurt ), n the worst of all, Im finally admitting i enjoyed it lah.. blehz.. okie2.. the small mini steps im taking to be "friendly" with these species.. haha.. im trying ppl.. motivate me lar! hehe
Had a nice chat wif helmi.. Talk bout lots of stuff n knowing helmi, he loves to put his attention on me, on my life.. blehz.. N apparently i was enlightened by the fact that he got this idea fr0m Nad, that i was the one leading "him" on.. Oh tanx alot for bitching wrongly behind my back. I din get it on how am i suppose to be the one leading him on? when im not even "the confused" person n i dont come ard with an excess baggage wrap ard my waist like "him".. N to add to it, we dont even knw wat happened in each others' pasts at that point of time.. Watever it is, u dont haf to w0rry that we r gonna be together ok.
Aniways, someone commented that he got this feeling that guys who date me will haf a hard time catching up with my conversations.. haha.. Now i know y some guys im dating are juz super plain bore to the point that i feel like im dating a donkey. sheesh.. i hate being the only person who talks.. it feels creepy coz if im the one talking, the other person will definitely not juz listen 100% to everi single words coming out of my mouth, but they would haf definitely been observing everi single part of my face.. eeee. how creepy is that? (very)
School starting 2moro.. im still bidding for 3 more mods. blehz.. N this month gonna be a hell of a month.. I haf tons of things to do.. projects projects projects.. N i owe a lot of meet up sessions n not forgetting treats too.. im feeling so sluggish n such a draggy lazy ass cow.. blame it on the superb ultimatum one helluva cramps im having.. boohoo.. Besides feeling like a bloated fish or a pregnant duck, im having enormous nonsensical cravings for all the sin food in these world.. seriously eyeing on cheesecake next.. heh
Btw, thanx shah for the superb nite stroll n wonderful dinner.. I know we've been thro a lot n Im glad uve been honest with me about certain things. Im seriously glad u did. I hope u understand and cherish the friendship we have. Im so sick of screwing up my friendships. U knw and i know we are better off like this.. *smilez*..
Sigh.. complications.. its alwys happen when u haf a close frenship with a guy.. blehz. But i believe once we get over "that stage" our frenship will be much much stronger.. yeah..
Oooh2.. i got 3 roses tonite.. *smilez*
