Tuesday, December 27, 2005
My initial plan was to post bout my happy meet-up sessions wif my beloved close frens (CG & SB), where we went for our heavy lunch at Cahaya followed by a movie(Narnia) at cinei, their forever crappy n lame jokes, the few updates we shared bout each other n yada yada.. but somehow later in the evening, SB has to just spoil everithing!
firstly i dont understand how cn someone u care so much bout juz doesnt make sense most of the time, not forgetting how an A-S-S they could be.. SB, u r my best fren for 2 yrs nw.. Everibody in PJ knws tat. Its unfair for u 2 make me pretend that our frenship doesnt exist juz so that ur gf will not be threatened by it . wth ! I knw how much u treasure our frenship but we cant go forever hiding.. She has to live wif it. FULLSTOP. N i super H-A-T-E it when u "threaten" me by saying our frenship is at a stake.. N u knw that i will do aniting in this world that i could for u, but for once, u had to be fair to me too.. N since i promised u that i would delete the post bout our meeting, i have to do it aniways.. Last bt not least, im sorree that i dont feel sorree u broke up wif her. I knw u deserve better.. stop blaming urself pls. she's juz not worth it.. sigh.. bt i knw deep down inside u'll still go back to her n nothing i cn do about it.. See, how i live wif that? y cnt her too?
Sheesh.. n i thot frenship is simple..
N to that someone.. u made it sweet as long as it has lasted.. i still dont understand y the silent treatment tho'. I deserve an explaination fr u.. u knw i do.. i guess i had a taste of my own medicine.. thanx for everithing..
I used 2 haf this funny idea that once im ready to commit, the right guy will just pop up n i will start my fairytale journey.. but somehow, it doesnt equate that way.. u may be ready, but the right guy might not, or the right guy still lost somewhere, or the right guy is in the last position of ur Q-up list..n so on n so forth..
But like mr Ben-n-Jerry has said, tings happen for a reason n u'll learn something fr everithing.. sigh.. sometimes its easier said than done rite?.. bt i dont deny that im amazed by how fast i am able to pull myself up again. blehz.. I guess its a bit easier when u force urself to rationalise things n when u haf tons of gfs to "slap" u up n down n to smile n laugh with.. Tanx babes.
