Friday, December 16, 2005
I knw its 4 in the morning... but i cant sleep. Had a rough nite just nw.. i hate it.. i hate myself.. i hate it when i questions alot of things n i hate it most when i cnt find the answers for them. Its just exhausting. As exhausting as trying to be the positively happy person everione thot i am. im not.. I dnt understand y some ppl made decisions tat could hurt somebody they love, n to even think that you love them in the first place, juz doesnt make sense.. I hope things will b better s00n.. im juz too tired to cry myself to sleep, coz my worries will nvr go away.......
for the first time... i nd an angel....
