Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Gosh, 2day's my br0's b'day.. We dint celebrate that much coz seriously, we are running low in cash.. Everything is going to our granny. I donno what to say. I dont hate her coz its not her fault that she's that sick. I dont hate my uncles n aunties for being so farking poor coz it's god's will & i DONT definitely blame g0d for making our lives become like this coz after all Allah is the Al-Mighty.. Sheesh.. I cant even save up money for my br0's present. I had like 50 bucks last week. Spent sum n i remembered i had like 30 bucks on Mon. Then i help my mom buy groceries n gave Hadi 5 bucks n i'm left with 2 bucks. I'm going out 2moro n i feel so farking bad to ask my father for money.. I pitied my br0. He came home late juz now. Looks ok at first. I help him undo his army boots n clothes as I ask him bout his day at sch. I make it a habit to do it everyday. He kept talking bout his army stuffs. I was wondering y. Then i ask him anithing ur frens did for u 2day? He looked d0wn n said,"They know its my b'day.. haha.. but they dint wish me anithing." He kept quiet n looked down.. As he carried the badges n coins i placed on the floor, i saw his teary eyes. DAMN. he cried.. I felt sooooo extremely sad to see guys cry. I donno what to say except hug him n said "i'll prepare ur dinner. U go n bathe.." Pity him. Life muz be hard for him in new environment. Yeah, he's demoted from express to normal ac.. Depressing feeling. I always encourage him n i knw he's like working farking hard coz every single farking day, he did his homework in my r00m.. S0rry with all the farking words peeps. I'm s0 full wif anger n it feels even farking depressing if i cnt find a source to pinpoint on. G0sh.. I nd therapy.. Shit.. Aniway, i received this msg in friendster from this stupid malay guy. He wrote, "hi ....lawanyaaa...comenyaaa..cutenyaaa...cunnyaaa....kalo aku ensemm......sure ku ngorat...makan apa jadi lawa sgt nih...hehehe...can we be friend?"
U know what? I took back my previous entry bout the friendster thingy being the lousiest pick up lines, coz this is definitely the ONE!!
U know what? I took back my previous entry bout the friendster thingy being the lousiest pick up lines, coz this is definitely the ONE!!
